Category: Children and parenting

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Raising you is healing me

Dearest Kira and Luca, We are in the middle of raising you through the most important part of your becoming a “human” (I put that in inverted commas, because you are not). Your dad is a rock star. Your mom is an undercover vigilante and if uncovered both of us will physically dismantle what is attempting to break you. I have watched your dad. … Read More Raising you is healing me

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I’m blogging standing up

It’s 15:30. We left home at around 14:00 to do necessary shopping for the house. We just got home with two lively sprites. Kira gets hugely overstimulated at school (we recognise this problem) and Luca seems to relish the reunion with us…aka we cannot put him down. I know that this is our reality so before they get home, lunches are prepped, dinner is … Read More I’m blogging standing up

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Stages of becoming whole

Thinking back over my few years in life, I’ve never felt more whole than when I was about five or six. I felt my most alive or most validated at around eleven or twelve. This already was a sign that I was forming an idea of who I was and what I am capable of based on feedback from people around me. I knew … Read More Stages of becoming whole

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What if she’s right and I’m not?

There have been many times in lockdown I have thought about this. Every time I wanted to write about it, but either the time was naught or the words escaped me. I’m not even sure I’ll be able to properly word it today, but that won’t stop me now. The isolation has provided me with much time to listen to audio books and do … Read More What if she’s right and I’m not?

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You’re stronger than you think

Sometimes the best you can do is not what you think it is. It isn’t just an 85kg deadlift. It isn’t just staying up most of the night with two of your tiny offspring. For the last few days God has been telling me again how He knows I am stronger than I think I am. He’s told me this before, also at a … Read More You’re stronger than you think

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On the bad days

I’ll just get right to it: Last night I prayed that our night will be calm (for all 4 of us). I also prayed that Kira will wake up in a good mood and Luca will sleep. I prayed that Jaco will get to REST and be ready for the week. I somehow left myself out. Kira did wake up well. Luca…kind of slept … Read More On the bad days

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Becoming us

I’m sorry if this is very heavy. I needed to write this down. In future our kids or their kids will have the ability to pin an emotion to a post. Right now I just have to hope I have the words to try and explain this. I was in the car on the way to work, after dropping off Kira at school, when … Read More Becoming us

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You’re not ready

A LOT of things have been rushing through my head. I have been re-reading my blogs, letters I wrote to Kira, I wrote new ones to her, I have been wanting to blog so much of what I’m thinking. Today my cup is running over and I need to pin this down. The banner on this post IS my Kira-child. She is 2 years … Read More You’re not ready

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There’s tired…

…then there’s Mom-tired, and then there’s pregnant-Mom-tired. I don’t want to sub-divide any further. We can have endless debates about working pregnant moms, working pregnant moms raising toddlers, working pregnant moms raising difficult toddler daughters…we can literally go on for days. I believe each of us get blessed with what we can handle. So if you are a mom capable of the very last … Read More There’s tired…

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When she’s sick

It feels like we just got the hang of this whole work-baby-parenting thing and BAM! She got sick. Man, is this rough! It had to happen eventually, so now is as good a time as any…if there can ever be a “good time” for your little one to get sick. I anticipated quite a lot of things for when she would be ill. For … Read More When she’s sick

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Only for now

So Kira started creche this week. It’s Saturday and she’s taking her first morning nap next to me, while I catch up on some blogging and social media. 3AM this morning I was sitting in my bed, propped up against some pillows, the breastfeeding pillow around my waist and Kira sleeping on it after her third feed for the night, researching when and how … Read More Only for now

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Because you’re tired

One thing you know very well when you have a Little One or two or four: feeling tired. Before you had kids, when you were tired, you would simply take a pajama day, take it slow for a while, maybe get in bed a little earlier. ROFL not anymore. You forget where you put stuff, because you’re tired. You leave doors open on cupboards … Read More Because you’re tired